Even in the midst of this beautiful week where the sun is shining, the sky is a beautiful fall blue, and my life is going along swimmingly, my heart is downcast. Psalm 43 keeps coming into my head when I forget why I am walking around in a grey fog with such light and beauty surrounding me. The Psalm says in verse 5, “Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you disquieted within me?” And then, my brain kicks in remembering the horrific events in Las Vegas on Sunday night which immediately takes me to Sandy Hook and Aurora, Colorado and Virginia Tech and on and on and on. And I think of all of those killed with guns each year not only in mass shootings, but in single shootings. And, I get angry at us humans, especially those of us living in the United States. And I wail and say what crazy people we are and what a crazy society we live in. And I wonder, as a pastor, what in the world I can say to my congregation and to society. Because I don’t see a way out of this mess.
Then, I saw this video today. I have seen some videos this guy, Trae Crowder, has done in the past and find them hilarious and poignant at the same time. He calls himself “a liberal redneck speaking to rednecks”. For those of you who don’t like offensive language, please don’t watch it. For those of you that can overlook the language, this is how I feel today. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73GicaeMo_E&t=3s
Please don’t get me wrong. I don’t think this is a “redneck” issue. Gun rights supporters and gun limits supporters are a part of all parts of our wonderful country. This is an issue for all of us in the United States who have polarized ourselves so much that we can’t even speak to one another. My point is his: Can’t we all just come to the table and try to change this insanity? Try to find an answer to end the gun violence that happens everyday in our nation? Can’t we all just try?
I hope that you and I can be part of the trying.
And then, I turn to the last part of verse 5 of Psalm 43. “Hope in God; for I shall again praise God, my help and my God.” Even in despair, my hope and help are in God. And I know that God is with us in the crying and despair and in the trying. Always and forever.